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rollercoaster life

28/01/2007

hmmm somehow i just happen to be in the mood to think and i said sth to elise which make me think quite a bit. was telling her about jc life and how stressful it is but it'd be over very soon just like a rollercoaster ride. i've never been on one but i presumed it'd be scary and everyone would just be hanging on for their life while on the roller coaster, wishing it to be over as soon as possible. but the moment it ended, memory of the thrilling ride they juz had remain and how they wish to have another go at it.

doesnt this sound just like the voice of a student's life? life passes in a blur and sometimes i still have a hard time believing secondary sch is actually over and im approaching the scary no. 18. looking at the current life i have now, how i wish i could turn time back to where things were simple to deal with. no relationship problems or conflicts to solve. no pressure to decide on your future and no worries about wad tmr holds cause you know your parents will always be there looking after you. but when there were numerous datelines to meet and tests to study for, how we'd wish for time to pass faster and this ordeal to end quickly. isn't that just like what we always do? wishing for things that had gone by and not treasuring them when they are in our possession. 为什么人总是要等到失去后才懂得珍惜？

we may complain all we like about how lousy and stressful jc life but when we truly do get out of the education system, the thing on our mind would most likely be how we wish to go back to jc where we get to meet new people, try out new things and have new experiences that would last a lifetime. the thrill of being in school with fellow friends would remain but we can never change back time and only memories would be left of the fun and joy we had. so why not try to make our jc life a happy and enjoyable one instead of always focusing on the bad events in our life? life is unpredictable and time will still go on no matter how we feel, what we do. why should we torture ourselves by immersing in negative thoughts when we can make ourselves happier with a positive outlook? quoting frm my cute xuanchuan zuzhang "smile because no one else can do so for you". and quoting from 张老师, "他人的评语固然重要但最重要的仍是你对于自己的评估。为何因为他人的看法而惹到自己这么不开心呢？先让自己开心吧，因为这是我们唯一所能做的。”

i do realise this entry is full of random ramblings so very sorry to those who are wasting their time reading it. below is a short story i would say copied from yunzhou and it seems thought provoking to me when i first read it. dun know wad your response would be but enjoy. :)

“你开着一辆车，在一个暴风雨的晚上。你经过一个车站，有三个人正在等巴士：一个是快要死的老人，好可怜的；一个是医生，他曾救过你的命，是大恩人，你做梦都想报答他；还有一个女人/男人，她/他是那种你做梦都想娶/嫁的人，也许错过就没有了。但你的车只能坐一个人，你会如何选择？”

……………

我不知道这是不是一个对你性格的测试, 因为每一个回答都有他自己的原因。老人快要死了，你首先应该先救他。然而，每个老人最后都只能把死作为他们的终点站，你先让那个医生上车，因为他救过你，你认为这是个好机会报答他。同时有些人认为一样可以在将来某个时候去报答他，但是你一旦错过了这个机会，你可能永远不能遇到一个让你这么心动的人了。

在200个应征者中，只有一个人被雇佣了，他并没有解释他的理由，他只是说了以下的话：“给医生车钥匙，让他带着老人去医院，而我则留下来陪我的梦中情人一起等公车！”

每个人我认识的人都认为以上的回答是最好的，但没有一个人（包括我在内）一开始想到。是否是因为我们从未想过要放弃我们手中已经拥有的优势（车钥匙）？有时，如果我们能放弃一些我们的固执，狭隘，和一些优势的话，我们可能会得到更多。

就这样放手一博吧
learn to give up.

snows are swirling at 11:03 pm

confused

26/01/2007

i juz dno wad to do anymore.. i can feel myself being stretched to the limit and to be honest, i dno how long more i can last. nth i do seems to go right and things i believed in turned out to be false. im losing hope and there seems to be no way to get it back. how??? there's still two more years to go and i already cant stand it le. i dont understand wad the teachers are talking, feel useless in huangcheng, cant even get one damn screwed interview right, seeing the truth of so called frens and now, the only thing i ever had any faith abt in myself, i had to be jerked to the reality tat the world is unfair and skills dont count for anything at all. serious. so wad if u have the ability, so wad if ur skills is better? nth counts. seniors' opinions count for everything and i suppose i juz arent likable at all..

i was still quite determined to get another chance at trying it out again coz i juz dont get y izzit that i couldnt get in when TWO others whose standards are so much lower than mine can. it juz doesnt seem fair to me? fine, i know i sound v hao4 lian4 but i seriously din believe this decision was made and i juz cant stand it. however, somewhere tonight i began to ponder upon the purpose of doing this and i realise sth. there's no point at all. if i were to persist, i'd juz end up seeming arrogant and boastful. so perhaps i shld juz give it all up rite?

after this, i seriously dno wad else to believe in and perhaps, im truly a lousy person with no skills to talk of. at this rate, i shld probably even juz get out of hwa chong since there's no pt in me staying on. wad's the purpose of staying in an environment where u cant fit in, gets ostracised and have to have constant reminder of ur worst nightmare? no purpose rite? the advantages of juz giving everything up is so much easier than trying to struggle thru two years of endless suffering, with nth in return and only bad memories to keep.

i probably said this b4 but i shall say it again coz this is truly how i feel now. i have no idea how much longer i can take all this mental and emotional stress, and i wan my bestbestbest fren back!! i miss having someone to talk to everyday, someone who'll always be there supporting me no matter wad i do.. :( and at least, i dont feel like a 懼戙昳 when talking to u.. why izzit tat i am always a mere substitute and nvr matter enough to anyone? nobody cares and ppl treat me as someone who will juz always be there for them. am i destined to endure this fate for the rest of my life? i've no idea wad meaning life holds for me anymore if this is indeed true.

p/s: as i mentioned in the previous entry, just ignore me. im merely venting my frustration and emotions. the cheerful sinyee as wad everyone says will be back soon enough. im juz nt in the mood to joke arnd at this

snows are swirling at 11:07 pm

confused

26/01/2007

snows are swirling at 11:07 pm

personality test

24/01/2007

haha juz went to take this personality test and i got ESFP, Extroverted, Sensing, Feeling and Perceiving. haha i had 61, 62, 62 and 11% respectively. din really understand wad the personality type meant so went to google it and im IMPRESSED! haha it seems so true of me!!! sry if this entry is a bit too long. :D

The Performer

As an ESFP, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion. Your secondary mode is internal, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system. ESFPs live in the world of people possibilties. They love people and new experiences. They are lively and fun, and enjoy being the center of attention. They live in the here-and-now, and relish excitement and drama in their lives.

ESFPs have very strong inter-personal skills, and may find themselves in the role of the peacemaker frequently.(?!? really???) Since they make decisions by using their personal values, they are usually very sympathetic and concerned for other people's well-being. They're usually quite generous and warm. They are very observant about other people, and seem to sense what is wrong with someone before others might, responding warmly with a solution to a practical need. They might not be the best advice-givers in the world, because they dislike theory and future-planning, but they are great for giving practical care.

ESFP is definitely a spontaneous, optimistic individual. They love to have fun. If the ESFP has not developed their Thinking side by giving consideration to rational thought processing, they tend to become over-indulgent, and place more importance on immediate sensation and gratification than on their duties and obligations. They may also avoid looking at long-term consequences of their actions.

For the ESFP, the entire world is a stage. They love to be the center of attention and perform for people. They're constantly putting on a show for others to entertain them and make them happy. They enjoy stimulating other people's senses, and are extremely good at it. They would love nothing more than for life to be a continual party, in which they play the role of the fun-loving host.

ESFPs love people, and everybody loves an ESFP. One of their greatest gifts is their general acceptance of everyone. They are upbeat and enthusiastic, and genuinely like almost everybody. An ESFP is unfailingly warm and generous with their friends, and they generally treat everyone as a friend. However, once crosesed, an ESFP is likely to make a very strong and stubborn judgment against the person who crossed them. They are capable of deep dislike in such a situation.

The ESFP under a great deal of stress gets overwhelmed with negatives thoughts and possibilities. As an optimistic individual who lives in the world of possibilities, negative possibilities do not sit well with them. In an effort to combat these thoughts, they're likely to come up with simple, global statements to explain away the problem. These simplistic explanations may or may not truly get to the nature of the issue, but they serve the ESFP well by allowing them to get over it. (i think this seriously fits me to a T!!)

ESFPs are likely to be very practical, although they hate structure and routine. They like to "go with the flow", trusting in their ability to improvise in any situation presented to them. They learn best with "hands-on" experience, rather than by studying a book. They're uncomfortable with theory. If an ESFP hasn't developed their intuitive side, they may tend to avoid situations which involve a lot of theoretical thinking, or which are complex and ambiguous. For this reason, an ESFP may have difficulty in school. On the other hand, the ESFP does extremely well in situations where they're allowed to learn by interacting with others, or in which they "learn by doing".

ESFPs have a very well-developed appreciation for aesthetic beauty, and an excellent sense of space and function. If they have the means, they're likely to have to have many beautiful possessions, and an artfully furnished home. In general, they take great pleasure in objects of aesthetic beauty. They're likely to have a strong appreciation for the finer things in life, such as good food and good wine.

The ESFP is a great team player. He or she is not likely to create any problems or fuss, and is likely to create the most fun environment possible for getting the task done. ESFPs will do best in careers in which they are able to use their excellent people skills, along with their abilities to meld ideas into structured formats. Since they are fast-paced individuals who like new experiences, they should choose careers which offer or require a lot of diversity, as well as people skills.

ESFPs usually like to feel strongly bonded with other people, and have a connection with animals(?? since when? -.-") and small children that is not found in most other types. They're likely to have a strong appreciation for the beauties of nature as well.

The ESFP has a tremendous love for life, and knows how to have fun. They like to bring others along on their fun-rides, and are typically a lot of fun to be with. They're flexible, adaptable, genuinely interested in people, and usually kind-hearted. They have a special ability to get a lot of fun out of life, but they need to watch out for the pitfalls associated with living entirely in the moment.

ESFP Strengths

- Enthusiastic and fun-loving, they make everything enjoyable
- Clever, witty, direct, and popular, people are drawn towards them
- Earthy and sensual
- Down to earth and practical, able to take care of daily needs
- Artistic and creative, they're likely to have attractive homes
- Flexible and diverse, they "go with the flow" extremely well
- They can leave bad relationships, although it's not easy
- Try to make the most of every moment
- Generous and warm-hearted

ESFP Weaknesses

- May be frivolous and risky with money
- Tend to be materialistic
- Extreme dislike of criticism, likely to take things extremely personally
- Likely to ignore or escape conflict situations rather than face them
- Lifelong commitments may be a struggle for them - they take things one day at a time
- Don't pay enough attention to their own needs
- Tendency to neglect their health, or even abuse their bodies
- Always excited by something new, they may change partners frequently

Contributions to the team of an ESFP
In a team environment, the ESFP can contribute by:

- involving everyone in the discussion and decision making
- valuing the strengths of each individual, and encouraging team members to contribute their best work
- using a sense of humour to build a friendly atmosphere
- building a lively 'can-do' atmosphere, which generates team spirit
- focusing on practical ideas
- applying a common sense approach to problem solving
- maintaining awareness of the factual information on which discussions are based

The potential ways in which an ESFP can irritate others include:
- taking too personal a focus - e.g.: taking criticism personally
- acting too quickly, without appearing to think things through
- focusing too much on the current task at the expense of longer term or interpersonal issues
- not seeing the wood for the trees
- not taking account of costs or logical considerations
- turning to a new problem before the last one has been fully completed
- over-using humour

Personal Growth
As with all types, the ESFP can achieve personal growth by developing all functions that are not fully developed, through actions such as:

- developing a greater understanding of how people feel
- stopping and thinking before acting
- ensuring that all aspects of a task have been completed before going on to the next one
- spending time to interpret facts - looking for subjective meaning, and for underlying patterns
- developing time management skills
- establishing a long term goal, developing an outline plan for achieving it, and working towards it
- listing options, and undertaking a formal process of evaluation against criteria, including a cost benefit analysis

Recognising Stress
As stress increases, 'learned behaviour' tends to give way to the natural style, so the ESFP will behave more according to type when under greater stress. For example, in a crisis, the ESFP might:

- draw in other people to help
- use tried and tested methods of solving problems
- act impulsively and take risks
- fail to consider cost implications

Under extreme stress, fatigue or illness, the ESFP's shadow may appear - a negative form of INTJ.
Example characteristics are:

- go quiet or withdraw from people
- have a gloomy view of the future
- openly criticise other people
- stop adapting to changing circumstances

The shadow is part of the unconscious that is often visible to others, onto whom the shadow is projected. The ESFP may therefore readily see these faults in others without recognising it in him/her self.

Possible Career Paths for the ESFP:

Artists, Performers and Actors
Sales Representatives
Counselors / Social Work
Child Care
Fashion Designers
Interior Decorators
Consultants
Photographers

ESFPs as Lovers

"To love means to open ourselves to the negative as well as the positive - to grief, sorrow, and disappointment as well as to joy, fulfillment, and an intensity of consciousness we did not know was possible before." -- Rollo May

ESFPs embrace their love relationships in a Big way - similar to the way they approach their lives in general. They love to be in love, and will try to make the most of each moment. They take things on a day-by-day basis, and are uncomfortable thinking too much about the future, or making plans far in advance. For this reason, ESFPs are not natural long-term commitment people. They may feel tremendously committed on a day-by-day basis, but they do not naturally plan for their futures.

This commitment issue is a potential pitfall for the ESFP. Many people of this type overcome this potential weakness, and become involved in truly satisfying, lifelong relationships. Others do not address this weakness, and move from relationship to relationship without forming real commitments, convincing themselves that this is what they truly want.

Sexually, the ESFP is a very earthy and sensual individual who seeks and enjoys intimate contact with their partners. Living in the here-and-now, they throughly embrace and enjoy the experience with all five senses. They are generous and warm, and highly interested in making their partners happy.

ESFPs tend to be materialistic, and somewhat caught up in "what others think" of them. They should take care that this doesn't interfere with their personal relationships, since many of the others types will not be able to relate to their perspectives on these matters.

ESFPs do not handle conflict well at all. They take any sort of criticism very personally, and consider it to be a general indictment of their character. They may react with anger and harsh words which they would later like to take back. ESFPs would do themselves a favor if they would come to realize that criticism can be looked at constructively, rather than destructively. If they can hear criticism without feeling personally threatened, the ESFP will have come a very long way towards greatly improving the strength and health of their relationships.

ESFPs are extremely literal and concrete when communicating. They say things in a very direct, abrupt manner, and can sometimes even unintentionally seem quite harsh. They like things to be communicated to them in a similar, concrete fashion. They dislike theory and abstraction, and will frequently misunderstand the jist of a communication if it is not communicated in a factual, present-tense manner. Discussions regarding the future or the past are not the ESFP's strong suit, and in fact they're likely to miscontrue future-looking statements as something that needs immediate attention. When they discover that the discussion is not regarding an immediate concern, they become disinterested.

ESFPs are in general very warm and giving people, with simple needs and demands from their partners. They just want to be happy, and want to bring happiness to others. They are energetic and popular individuals who will liven up the social life of the couple, and keep many new experiences on the horizon.

Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, ESFP's natural partner is the ISTJ, or the ISFJ. ESFP's dominant Extraverted Sensing function is best matched with a personality that is dominated by Introverted Sensing. How did we arrive at this?

ESFPs as Parents

"You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth...
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable." -- Kahlil Gibran

The ESFP's "go with the flow", fun-loving attitude will extend to the raising of their children. They are warm and affectionate parents, and are great for giving practical care to their children. They like to do things in a Big way, and enjoy big families.

The ESFP will freely give love and affection to their children, but they frequently have a problem with defining a structured, orderly environment for them, and they may rely on their mates in this regard. Ultimately, the ESFP likely believes that too much structure is not a healthy thing for anyone, and so they're unlikely to enforce a highly structured or disciplined environment. If this trait is strongly present in the ESFP, and is not counteracted by their mate's perspective, it could be considered a potential pitfall for the ESFP parent. Children need some structure which can be depended upon as they grow up.

The ESFP is very practical and concrete in their daily needs, and are usually quite good at taking care of their children's daily needs. Although their approach to life is frequently "ad-lib", and their lives are almost always extremely full of exciting events, the ESFP is very good at juggling many things at once, which makes them especially good at handling the various issues which come up in a large family.

ESFPs tend to have difficulty with the authoritarian role, preferring to be their children's friend. However, they do expect to be given respect and to be obeyed when necessary, and will fall into the role of parental authoritarian at times. This can be frustrating for some children, especially those with strong Judging tendencies, as they will not know what to expect from their ESFP parent.

ESFPs are usually remembered fondly by their children for being fun-loving, upbeat, and affectionate, although somewhat scattered. =)

ESFPs as Friends

ESFPs are highly enthusiastic and effervescent. They are usually very popular, because people are naturally drawn towards them. They get such genuine delight and enjoyment from experiences which they encounter in life, and they love nothing better than to draw a crowd of people along with them for the sheer fun of it. ESFPs try to turn every day into a party, and they're usually successful at doing so.

ESFPs are highly valued for their ability to have a good time, and for their genuine warmth and interest towards people. They are extremely in tune with their five senses, and may be prone to overload them with too much alcohol, food, or drugs. They get along with all sorts of people, although they're not interested in spending time with people who they find boring, or who expect the ESFP to communicate with them on an Intuitive or Thinking level. Some people may disapprove of the ESFP's fun-oriented lifestyle. Others may be put off by their very stright-forward and blunt speaking style. The ESFP is likely to especially enjoy spending time with other Extraverts who have the Feeling preference, although they may have a special place in their hearts for people of any preference.

snows are swirling at 10:05 pm

seriously stressed out

20/01/2007

i think im going to have a mental breakdown sometime soon. apparently im juz not suited to jc life coz i cried during 2nd day of orientation and i feel like crying again now.. barely a mth have passed and im so stressed out by school now.. wad am i to do in the long mths to come? will i ever endure past all these mental stress? i wonder..

i have no idea why i seem to like to torture myself so much.. i muz have been in the wrong state of mind when i insisted on taking csc instead of the easy way out - cll, a subj with an almost guaranteed A. haiz.. dno if it's coz of stress or what but my memory span is only a few seconds nowadays and tat's SCARY! i'm like super laggy these days and totally catch no ball when others are joking abt.. at the rate im going, i'll probably end up a social outcast b4 the mth is up.. wonderful start to the yr.

cant blog much nw coz i've two stupid csc projects waiting for me to figure out wad in the world are they talkin abt so shall stop now. for those reading this now and know me well enough, dun wry. i'll be fine after this gloomy period pass. for now though, juz ignore wadever i say coz im extremely prone to talking rubbish whenever im feeling stressed or down.

snows are swirling at 11:17 pm

slacky timetable

16/01/2007

haha i juz realise that my timetable is very slack compared to many others coz other than mon where lessons end at 3 and fri at 4, my lessons end at 12 on tues n weds and 1 on thurs. so shuang can?! haha and yujay sucks. he was saying he shouldnt even have come sch early today coz he has 1 and a half hr of slack time while the rest of us were enduring either the boring csc teacher or the even more boring physics. someone very PRO mahz.. takes german lo.. extra.. :P

haha ok tat's beside the point. hmm other than a rather slack timetable, im finding things quite fun and enjoyable in hci right now since i dun feel any pressure from either cca or academic work YET. blehh.. im so dreading eoy and all the tests along the way.. haiz im so sure im going to screw up all my studies these two years la! like i totally dun understand wad the lecturers are saying?! and im still nt used to having lectures instead of normal lessons in classrooms.. kept dozing off lo. :( shall give myself a reminder to bring sweets to class so tat i wun fall asleep tat easily.. haha sweets remind me of kenneth and yujay coz they are my current sweets-providers now, and i get to kope sweets from them everyday.. :D oh and back to the lectures, i muz say tat i have the MOST WONDERFUL maths lecturer ever! she seriously ROCKS! 1st lecture and she was teaching polynomial or rather the 1st part of "sequence and series". so after a whole lot of crapping and self entertainment, she asked "do you all know how to do long division?" everyone assumed she meant long division of POLYNOMIAL so we replied "no". guess wad? she gave us a DETAILED explanation of how to do long division using 1265/2. WONDERFUL NO?! im so prepared to flunk maths le, unless my tuition teacher can somehow work magic and save me..

i like the econs teacher but i dun really understand econs which is sad.. :( haiz shall see how it proceed from now on.. am still rather unfamilar with all the definite terms they use and the different circumstances to use them.. haiz.. chem is ok i supposed.. haha my chem teacher is my CT and he's very nice! haha always laugh along with us coz he's new to the sch too and he's quite friendly as in he'll joke with the students and nt juz expect us to follow his orders. oh n he can rmb my name though he claims tat he cant rmb my class' names.. >< so scary la.. we had lab on mon then i was laughing at some random things danny n joshua were doing when i suddenly hear mr liw say "sinyee, wad is so funny ar?" really not xia dao.. -.-"

well tat's abt it for the subj teachers.. im NOT looking forward to pe tmr.. seriously, i have NOT been exercising for months and im so unfit tat i dun think i can run a single km lo.. oh n i went for recreational badminton today, sth i totally regret. ok it's not tat im some pro or wad, my badminton skills suck in comparison to my family's but really la, i juz have no patience for ppl who cant even serve properly.. i'll juz get super irritated coz it usually means tat im the one who ends up having to pick up the shuttlecock. i supposed im juz v lacking in patience.. OH the shuttlecocks were VERY lousy!! some of them are missing HALF the feathers and i have no idea how they expect us to play with tat.. so i juz got mildly irritated during practice and went to rest, partly also coz im damn tired.. i tink im going crazy le.. i left huang cheng orientation damn early ytd to go home and slp at 6.30 and ended up waking at 2.30AM. damn pro la.. went to bathe and make hot milo for myself as "late dinner" den i juz sat at my table and happily did my econs tutorial in the tranquil night. so shuang! but er the after effect is, i was super tired during sch today.. ><

haiz wanted to go home straight after badminton la then ms jiali dragged me to stay and watch meijie audition for athena drama fest, throughout which i was dozing off and not knowing wad is happening.. so im super super tired and sleepy now but i still dun feel like slping which is WEIRD! :( k nvm i shall go attempt and fall asleep now.. muz be more energised tmr! =) oh n im bored coz stan left for india ytd le!! so sad! now nobody to crap over the phone with me le.. :( nvm 15 days will pass VERY quickly and hopefully i dun die in the process.. =(

* as a last note, i would juz like to inquire myself as to why i am such a good target for suaning, as quoted from SEVERAL sources and proven true over the last few days.. :S

snows are swirling at 10:30 pm

War games!

10/01/2007

haha war games was quite fun coz athena WON!! woahh!! haha so happy!! heard from seniors that athena was last among all th facs last yr but in this new yr, we are top of the list currently!!! so fun!! :D haha too hype le.. well i din do much actually, was staying near the water bombs there with mingyi n peiyi to retie the water bomb bags and to stop ppl from taking too much. omg la! the speed at which they snatched the water bombs is SCARY!! mingyi had to resort to moving some of the water bombs away from the main pile to conserve some for later use..

haha then when me n peiyi finally venture out to the middle of our area towards the end of the game, we were so suay la! kenna splashed starch by councillors den my hair n face were so icky la! i was so irritated by the starch in my hair tat i kept pulling at it and i tink i dropped quite a lot of hair in the process. sad. :(

went lunch with part of my CT after bathing and it was quite funny.. haha everyone was talking nonsense then the phrase "speak of the devil" came true today. i was abt to say sth abt kenneth then he appeared out of nowhere the moment i said his name then i was like "oh my god. crap! so suay la!" obviously everyone ended up laughing again because of it. i realise my CT is v good at laughing together, we laugh at each other's awkwardness but nobody gets angry or irritated. a very good thing for a class of people who are new to each other. :)

hmm then it was cca exhibition which i din do really go n see since none of the ccas appeal to me. well one interesting thing which happened was at the co booth. shouhao insisted tat he can blow the suo na so he started to demo and "woahh!! so pro siaz!". everybody shocked diaoz.. then the seniors start to realise sth.. there's another guy behind who's blowing the suo na too and his face is red from the exertions so obviously shou hao was juz faking it but it was so funny la! everyone there was laughing like siaoz.. oh n i signed up for huangcheng today.. haha hope i wun regret my choice in the days to come but no worries! there's a nice snr who said he'll render his help if there's any trouble.. :D ok crap so basically after cca exhibition, we went back and practised the dance which was a v hilarious thing as usual.

yupz so everybody danced, laughed and made fun of each other together which is a very nice and cosy feeling.. hope my class will not lose this feeling in the months to come.. :) oh n i muz comment abt the nice guys in my class.. haha they had their water break b4 us so they went to the canteen and bought a 6-pack milo up for the girls. so nice rite?! haha i was shocked and erm touched la.. coz din really expect it from them.. yupz..

haha im so enthu abt my class suddenly now and in my og too.. from out of nowhere, we are having an og gathering this sun at seoul garden taka. hope everyone wun leng3 diao4 tat day else it'll be so boring le.. :( well im still looking forward to my CT's outing this sat.. guaranteed to have lots more laughter shared together.. :)

snows are swirling at 11:13 pm

Orientation!!

04/01/2007

haha.. today's second day of orientation and it was relatively ok seeing as how i missed out a large chunk of the og sessions today. din manage to go for the dance, songs and cheer session coz of damn stupid csc/cll, which resulted in me having to take a selection test, writing a zuo wen with damn bloody tough questions. haiz.. i was so stressed tat i cried out while thinking of what to write, and the mah lu thing is i was talking to wangwan when i cried so when we went out, quite a lot of chi teachers saw me crying and laughingly accuse wangwan of bullying me.. haha even the chi zhu3 ren4 saw me and was there comforting me too.. >< well, wangwan went off to lessons 10mins late because of me and after her, yi huang saw me crying too and tot wad happened.. :S after explaining to her and pondering abt my essay for a while, yunzhou called and ask if im still in the staff rm. he came with wangwan after their lesson and i was rather touched coz i din know my snrs care for me so much.. :)

well, after countless rounds of debates and changing my mind, i've settled on my original choice of chem, maths, econs and csc for 1st choice and my 2nd choice is rather weird as it's one of the most popular combis in hci, BCME. haiz hopefully i wun do v badly in csc else i'll probably juz swop to cll instead of csc since both wangwan and yunzhou guaranteed me tat it's almost impossible to do badly for cll. :S

hmm tat's all for subj combi and now abt my og!!! haha i chao1 ji2 like my og!! :D haha og 7 rocks la! everybody is like so hyper and enthu and FUN!! haha i think i'll be damn sad when we split up tmr lo.. hopefully i can get them to have an og dinner. :D haha this is such a drastic change of mindset for me coz i was so scared i'd have a lousy og due to the presence of a few zhu ba jies but luckily all came out fine! haha juz as wad stan n yinghao had said. :D

yippie! we had dance session ytd and i danced with someone who looks like dingjie but according to tingfeng, he's ivan cheung from 4L and tingfeng's pri schmate. oh n tingfeng thinks that he's quite handsome. >.<" haha i pity him so much coz i was super uncoordinated with my hands and legs and i tink i hit him accidentally a few times b4. so ke lian! haha and the worse thing is, i cant recognise him. :S i was looking at dingjie today coz he was my og rep and i was wondering if he's my dance partner coz they look so alike lehz! bleh.. but countless sources have commented tat it's definitely NOT him so too bad. oh and i find keef v interesting too.. haha i first knew of this person coz of stan's photos from perth and i was remarking to stan tat he's one of the two shuai4 guys in his class lo. but er, first day of orientation make me realise he wasnt as shuai4 as i tot but he's CUTE! haha.. he damn funny.. was super enthu in games and such and took the initiative in quite a lot of stuff so yea, i was rather impressed by him. :)

eh, as for the rest of my grp members, i cant really say much coz i din really interact with them a lot. the females are ok coz we bonded quite well i suppose. haha me, peggy n meijie stuck together mostly but we talked to christal and jolenta from ny too. there's this scgs girl called yu chuan who's quite friendly too and um a tkgs prc scholar called zhang qi i think. then there are two other prc scholars from either simei or tampines (din really catch their sch name properly. :S), one guy n one girl. the guy is called yang guang aka sunshine and the girl is hu mei bo. eh for guys, i know the names but i cant really identify who they are. :S lets see, other than those i already know such as tingfeng, nicholas and zhihong, there are clement fang, clarence, ivan, guo qi, longyi, khee xuan and i cant rmb le. :S bad bad memory.. muz be due to too much stress le.. :P haha k this is such a super long post that even im impressed with myself so i suppose i shall stop here nw and ATTEMPT to update again tmr. :P oh n 1 last thing, i keep thinking that im still sec 4. :S cant seem to accept the fact tat im older and im seriously in j1 now.. ><

snows are swirling at 11:24 pm

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